The day I found out I was pregnant was the happiest day of my life. The different feelings and emotions that I felt that day are indescribable. I was happy, excited, nervous and scared all at the same time. As the first week went by it hit me like a ton of bricks that I was going to become a mother. I had no idea what I was in for and how much my life was about to be flipped upside down (in a good way of course). I started writing in my journal daily and reflected on my thoughts, feelings and preparation needed in taking on this new chapter in my life. I even remember telling my boss, I burst into tears the moment I told her (I still don’t know if it was because I was nervous to tell her, or if at that moment it all sank in that motherhood was my next chapter. My family was so excited and so happy with the news, don’t even get me started with my mum (oh the joys and excitement of her becoming a grandma, I can’t even describe).
My pregnancy was a smooth ride (believe it or not), I didn’t get sick at all besides that one time when eating a cheeseburger lol (I’ve never eaten a cheeseburger since, true fact!). I was so afraid of morning sickness as my mum was sick with all three pregnancies. (Not just morning). We had a lot going on at this stage, moving to my mums, finding new tenants for our place, and our dream home was in the process of getting build. I kept myself busy at work (from memory I worked till I was about 7 months pregnant) and eventually couldn’t stand on my feet any longer. Shit was getting real and everything was falling into places just like I wanted it to. I remember when my water broke it was early Wednesday morning, 1:07am to be exact. All I remember was waking up to a massive puddle around me (Yup guys this is true and gross). At first I thought I peed myself, but eventually came to terms that my water broke. I changed the sheets and wait for it…. went back to bed!! Yup! You heard right! I mean who the hell does that… Me! Don’t even ask me why I did that, I still don’t know. I mean I wasn’t in any pain, and I thought maybe this wasn’t what was meant to happen. (It was my first pregnancy guys, give me a break). I remember my husband freaking out and telling me to go to the hospital’. I was so cool, calm and collected and just went to sleep. We laugh so much now when we talk about this particular moment.
My labour was the worst pain I have ever experienced in my whole entire life (and when I say the worst pain, I mean the worst pain!). On my birth plan I decided to go with the strict no drugs/natural birth rule (Yup, call me crazy). It took almost 20 hours for me to give birth and boy did I struggle. I was nearly rushed into having an emergency C-section but pushed through (literally!). My labor was not an easy one and there was a lot of complications, which I won’t go into. Moving on, the moment I laid my eyes on my beautiful baby was the most magical day of my life and also the day my life was about to completely change. I had officially entered this beautiful world we call motherhood.
Welcome to the world Mateo Barisic